What I am Loving Wednesday!!

Happy Wednesday guys! With all the storm and life craziness I have not had much time to do this, but I so need a break from the crazy while Heidi sleeps! I hope everyone is staying safe today, and to those who have beautiful weather... enjoy it for us! And be thankful. Praying for so many in Arkansas, TN, OK, and so many other places!

**I'm absolutely loving my readers and all the lovely comments I get! You guys are fantastic!

**I'm loving (as usual) my job. I love that I am blessed to get to be around this every single day... and I get paid to do things such as dyeing eggs and going to Chuck E Cheese. After my last jobs, it is just what I need. Thank you Lord!

**I'm Loving that even at almost 26 I still get an Easter basket! (thank you mom) I honestly think I will be 86 I will still get one! Of course instead of candy... I get truffles and things from Origins. Which I am also loving! This stuff is amazing and has helped me erase many of the effects of my illness that I thought I was scared with forever!

** I'm loving Travis for helping me put up my curtains for my room last night. He is also in the process of helping me put my Ikea bathroom shelves up. Okay, by helping he is pretty much doing it for me! Love nice people.

** I'm loving Nicole M. , Aaron Rushton, Emily Hauptli, Shaun Mount, and Robin Dover. I hate in my heart that most of my friends don't live in the same city as me, but I am so grateful to have them in my life!

** I'm loving that I have a God who I can praise in this storm!

** I'm loving that Whole Foods FINALLY had my TOMS in this week in my size!! (I think these MIGHT be mens, but oh well you get the color. It is the original Ash color)

** I'm loving those friends who call or text just to see how I am (and no facebook DOES NOT count people).

** I'm loving The Scientist... Coldplay... "No body said it was easy, but nobody said it would be this hard... oh it's such a shame for us to part.."

** I am loving snail mail! Which I was blessed with lately!! SO SO Happy. Where did the art of letter writing go?

**Because I am crushed for time.. pictures of things I am particularly loving right now...

*** Thank you for reading this RUSHED version of What I am loving Wednesday! I look forward to having time to spend tonight to read every one's loves and to hopefully doing some non-rushed entries! Happy Wednesday, stay dry, and be blessed!

What I'm Lovin' Wednesday!

Happy Wednesday everyone! I am very sleepy today, but I will muster up some strength to work, post this, and do some Zumba :)

I'm lovin'..... That it is going to be 71 degrees here today and 75 tomorrow!! YAY sunshine.

I'm lovin'..... Being reminded of how blessed I am to have my mom YET AGAIN this week! Thanks for yesterday again!!!!

I'm lovin'..... The Avett Brothers and getting to see them this past weekend in the big party town of Searcy, AR!

I'm STILL lovin'..... my job and this sweet little face

I'm lovin'..... being blessed to see all of these wonderful and glorious faces this past weekend that included playing in a tree house!!

I'm lovin'.... being blessed with these 2 people in my life! They have blessed SO many over the years and God has really used them in so many ways in so many people's lives.

I'm lovin'..... anything that provokes this much fun and laughter. Thanks Liv.

I'm lovin'..... the journey God is bringing me on and the story of forgiveness being written in my life. I was reminded of this song yesterday and I am lovin' it!!

I'm lovin'..... the promise that "there may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning because Your love NEVER fails!!"

I'm lovin'.... that today is Wednesday which means weekly lunch with Lora! Dinner with Nate tonight, dinner with Jen and the Rachel's tomorrow night, and who knows what the rest of this week will bring.

Coffee! Coffee! Coffee!

Today, I will tell you about one of my greatest struggles in life:)....

If one was to ask me if I liked coffee I would simply answer: "Only with my oxygen". I love coffee, I adore coffee. If it was physically possible to marry a beverage, I would marry coffee and have latte babies. I can drink it hot, cold, and on my best day lukewarm. I can sip it slowly and savor it or gulp it down like water. Cream, sugar, flavors, syrups, chocolate, cinnamon, black, white.. I will drink it. I would like to take a bath in the smell of coffee. Too much? Mayhaps, but there is just something so soothing and lovely about it. It comforts me as alcohol comforts an alcoholic. If I am stressed I want coffee, coffee and more coffee. Now don't get me wrong, I love to have a glass of wine too, but nothing makes me feel better than coffee. It reminds me of times shared with friends, family and loved ones, mornings, afternoons, and nights at the Montgomery's kitchen table with Rebecca and friends, coffee parties with my mom as a kid, studying at Midnight Oil, and many other fond memories. I love sitting, reading, and drinking coffee at Starbucks.

However, coffee does not like me. I try so hard to only have it once a month, on special occasions and only when spending time with others (such as trips to Searcy in the Montgomery's kitchen :)), but I am weak. I fail miserably at it. I WANT COFFEE. Daily, hourly at times even. If coffee could be some ones thorn in their.. it would be mine. I crave it, I want it, I need it! Alas, I will continue my daily struggle of refraining from coffee. Ladies and Gents, if you can drink coffee with no problem... enjoy it and consider yourself blessed. Those who have their own Starbucks in their house.. I envy you (although, only purely for that reason, because I don't need to live that extravagant of a life... but a Starbucks in my house would be okay). I find myself wondering if they have a patch for coffee addicts. I mean if they can have one for nicotine addicts, why not caffeine ones? Of course it would do no good for me, it is no longer the caffeine that is what lures me to coffee. It really is just the smoothness, and warm fuzzy feelings it gives me. I am going to now end my ridiculous rant, and this absurd blog post. Can't you see what no coffee does to me?! Coffee! Coffee! Coffee! :)

A cup of coffee shared with a friend is happiness tasted and time well spent."

(Disclaimer: When working as a social worker in Searcy I became HIGHLY addicted to it. Basically it was on me at all times from 6 am to 3 am when I went to bed. I stopped just short of having a continuous IV of coffee attached to me at all times. 2 words... Kidney Stones. Than I got sick, bad kidneys, and long story short.. I should really only have coffee once a month.. or never. )

My Own Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day!

Who has ever had ones of these days, Raise your hand ( I am just gonna go ahead and raise both of mine)!!?? Sunday was one of those days for me. It was just one of those days that EVERYTHING was going wrong. Everything from events happening, things with people, and my mood. Most of everything that happened is way to personal for me to post to my blog and to facebook . So, to maintain my privacy as well as those involved.. let me just say things were not going well. One thing I will mention however, have you even been betrayed by someone close to you? Lets even go a step further and say a family member? The age of facebook has made this even worse. The betrayals can now get shoved in your face electronically (see previous blog entry on facebook making jerks across the globe). Anyways, you think that family should be there for you and stick up for you, and most people's families do, mine however likes to pick and choose who they stand up for. Oddly enough, they stand up for the one that is in the wrong most of the time. Ladies and gentleman, I practiced some kick butt boundaries in this situation, which is the right thing to do, but as we all know "sometimes the hardest thing is the right thing". As, I was the only one standing up for me (other than my mother.. but I mean that is what mom's are for right?), it now can be lonely. That is okay though, I still fully intend to keep on practicing this new way of life that God has shown me.

On to the parts of my day Sunday that hopefully will be humorous in a few days... I fell down 2 separate sets of stairs yesterday. One is carpeted and I hit hard floor on the bottom. The other was outside and concrete. I don't just mean a little slip, but I mean an all out fall and bang. I believe I twisted every limb, bruised every area, and even have a knot on my arm. The first time I was just tired and not paying attention after my horrible nights sleep, and the other... I don't even know! Clumsy much? As if hurting my whole body (twice i might add) was not enough.. I also broke several picture frames when I fell. The real kicker though was i dropped a box full of breakables (all sentimental) and every single thing that could.. broke. Ladies, and Gents.. seal.your.boxes. One of the angels that broke head and arm was severed.. another lost her wings. Another valuable lost a leg. A chunk taken out of something else. I scrambled to find everything and could not. Mostly because I was sitting on the ground, in the rain, crying. What a baby. As I am not upset about things (they are just things) it is the sentiment I am sad about. The list of my bad day goes on, but I will refrain. All in all, I just want an important relationship to be okay (and be able to admit my own faults), and for forgiveness of the other situation to continue to take place on my part( as i don't believe those relationships will come back for the sake of my sanity and setting boundaries).

Now was this day the end of the world for me? Heck no. Will I live on for weeks thinking of this day? No. I know that there are so many people suffering (My Lord, Send Me post).. and Monday morning I have that back in perspective, but for that Sunday, my world was not going well. Sometimes we just need to acknowledge our bad day and cry and get it out, and know that in the morning God's mercy are new and everlasting. So today, I will get up, shake it off, move on and let God "Send Me". Thank the Lord for a brand new day !!!

*** Side note: Today I woke up to remember that SOME good did happen yesterday, and that is what I should be focused on now. Got a lot moved to the condo, got a package from my lovely friend Emily, found a paycheck I had lost from Feb (PRAISE GOD), realized I did have some people who cared, got to spend some "good/bad" TV girl time with my lovely friend Lora , who I also might add called me at the right time (thank you Holy Spirit), and last but not least.. all in all it drew me closer to my heavenly Father.. because after all sometimes a girl just needs to experience a Father's love!!